Wednesday, November 03, 2004

2 Minutes Ago

"Sheila, did you hear that Kerry just conceded the election?"
I tilted perilously back in my chair to catch her eye, but she wasn't looking at me. She was reading the AP article over my shoulder.

"Well, that does it then. I'm scared. I'm scared. The people have spoken, and they've declared me a second-class citizen."

Sheila, a stout, middle-aged lesbian, spoke more to herself than to me--how she usually talks, walking around her coffee shop in her own private but LOUD reverie.

"Must be the will of God, right? That's what they'll say. Four more years of running up the deficit, four more years of the politics of violence and of hate and of blind arrogance. Head Start's cut; who's gonna pay for all the kids left behind? Out with love; in with violence and hatred. I'm scared. I'm not saying Democrats are perfect--geez, no! But there is such HATRED the further Right you go, and it's in the name of God, and at least the Democrats have the grace and sense to invite everyone to the table."

She continued in this way on over to the counter, where she is now in heated dialogue with a group of like-minded women. Hoo boy. They're on to abortion now. Good gracious, the things that are being said, but I daren't join the conversation--I'd only be presenting myself a noble martyr to their anger.

Who knows what all of this portends, where these decision will take us?

My feelings, usually so near me, are out of reach right now. I don't know whether I feel (neither whether to feel) bleak disappointment, or relief. I was up too late, keeping company with too many chemicals and TV commentators as the map quarreled with itself into sharp-edged red and blue.
I probably look about as listless as Sam Donaldson did last night, poor old feller.

The one thing I'm capable of wishing for right now is the company, just for a few minutes, of those I love who are so thoughtlessly--not smug. . . what then? peaceful?--in their righteous redness. Just to show them the monster, Sheila. Real, live, right here. Queer and here and not goin' nowhere, however the states may throw up initiative fences to huddle behind. "Oh, Lordy Lord Lord, he'p us Lord, them gays is a'comin' fo' our li'l chilluns!"

Just to let them hear her bleat, watch her bleed, and ask themselves whether political solutions to the problem of her existence are what they really want.

3 Comments:

Blogger Steven said...

More power to the gay and lesbian people of this world. I wont stop them or try to convince them out of it, but when they claim to be christians is the time to speak up. The bible does say homosexuality is a sin and if you claim to be a christian you shouldn't be doing this. This is my stance on the, "They are awful sinners", point of view. We as christians can't hold the rest of the world to our standard of living.

November 4, 2004 at 4:50 PM  
Blogger Sean said...

poster, you, who write in verse
can write prose, just as well
Reminds me of a story, man
A two-storied house of peasants
where flocked together for soup
or smokes
a flock of lost idiots
full of hope
or full of soup and smoke

November 4, 2004 at 8:33 PM  
Blogger joel said...

Also, people who eat too much can't be Christians. Nor can people who are disrespectful to their parents, nor any of those men out there who have ever looked at pornography, nor any women who have ever intentionally gossiped about their neighbor, "friend", or enemy. No offense, Steven, but I think you're missing the point. Christianity does not exclude those of us who struggle with sin. God loves the homosexual, the glutton, the lazy, the arrogant, the disrepectful, and the self-deprecating. Sin does however prevent our Christian lives from becoming more fruitful (biblical fruitfulness is described as spiritual growth and maturity, internal character traits, bringing new people to faith, among others). My gay neighbor may or may not be a Christian. He claims to have placed his faith in Christ at a young age. I can't prove that either way, but I can talk with him (and have talked with him) about God's proscription of homosexual activity and the hindrance that his lifestyle creates in a more vibrant faith and abundant life (to paraphrase John 10).

November 6, 2004 at 5:38 PM  

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